to my prized possession
we're both drained,and i'm aware of that. the continuous rows we had feels as though it can almost sum up to the amount of quarrels an average individual would face in a lifetime. it wasn't easy to hear the one held dear to you verbally wounding you, emotionally. all the things we've said to one another hitting each other real hard, things we could never imagine hearing. but after all of it, nothing seems to get any better. i know all these while, i've been the one disputing your intentions. i've been self-centered and i never exactly spared a thought for you. i've realised all of that after you spoke to me last night. in this entire relationship, you've always been the magnanimous one. i'm thankful for that, because if things weren't like that, we wouldnt have been able to endure this whole thing for a year and a half. i've learnt things the hard way, and its your choice whether to believe that there's a transformation in me, not completely but my level of maturity has gone a level higher.i just can't afford to have any room for mistakes anymore.
i've always cared and as far as i can remember, there's never once i never did. its probably my weakness, being unable to show it. and i wouldnt have bothered to give you an explanation, or respond to you,if you meant nothing to me.
i believe things could definitely be worked out. and its between both of us, without any interference of people. and this is the time where what others say shouldnt be even taken into account, and we shouldnt be believing anyone else before hearing things out from one another.
i'm really apologetic for being not appreciative , not sparing a thought for you and all.and i feel that we shouldnt perpetuate a bitter quarrel anymore, which is making things worse eventually.
once again, i'm thankful to you for being so accomodating, and understanding me even till this instant, and still having trust in me.
we'll make things happen alright.
love,
ashleigh.